One of the things I struggle with most concerning Christianity is why, when you look at what is called christian today, things are so different from what the early followers of Jesus experienced. What I’m saying is that, when you look at the New Testament, you see all this crazy stuff happening. You read about blind people being able to see, paraplegics being able to walk, people having demons cast out of them, dead people coming back to life, people having dreams and seeing visions that come true, people prophesying stuff that really ends up happening, and lots of other crazy stuff. There are millions of explanations for why this doesn’t happen now, or how it does and I just don’t see it, but I think a lot of that is bullshit, well intentioned bullshit, but bullshit nonetheless.
If you have fooled yourself into thinking this stuff still happens, you are clearly in denial of reality and the rest of this post will be meaningless to you. Healing bad backs and headaches is NOT the same as witnessing someone who was blind be able to see. I would seriously be freaked out if I witnessed something like that, and that is something I have never seen a healer man do.
So, I just keep coming back to this question in my mind: why is it different now? There are a few options that I think are at least somewhat possible: The Holy Spirit just doesn’t work that way anymore, We are just so screwed up as the Body of Christ that we are incapable of having that relationship and faith in the Holy Spirit, or simply the Bible isn’t true and all that stuff was made up in the first place.
The first option is the one that most seminary people like to go to. It is clean and neat and doesn’t require any accountability from God or us for the discrepancy we see between the Bible and modern Christianity. It works well as an argument, but it doesn’t sit well with me. I think it is reactionary, an answer to a problem, and not something anyone would think up unless they were confronted with this clear disparity between the church then and now. It is the typical use of fancy pseudo-intellectual nonsense that hopes to sound smart enough to be convincing, but at the end of the day I think it is just more Bullshit.
So really, in my mind, I think it comes down to option two or three. That is kinda scary. Basically the church is seriously off track, to the point that we are mostly useless, or the bible is a lie.
Well, as most of you know, I think the church is seriously messed up, but the Spirit can do whatever he wants, right? Yeah, he could, but if people won’t be the kind of people to go out there and do that stuff, then it won’t happen I guess. I believe the Bible. There are things, like this, that I struggle with, but I believe it is true. I can defend that belief intellectually, but at the end of the day it is just a matter of faith. So, I am stuck with option two. The church is so far gone, we don’t see any of the crazy stuff the Holy Spirit was doing in the New Testament.
I would love to leave it there, but, since the church is made of people, and I am a person, and I have never been used to do that cool stuff, I have to say that I am part of that screwed up group. So, what am I doing wrong? I have no idea. I know that the people who followed Jesus in the New Testament lived really differently than I do. Maybe I’m missing something huge, maybe we all are. I don’t know what it is, and obviously no one does, or things would be different, but it’s either that or the Bible isn’t true, and like I said, I don’t think that is the case.